All this time, he pushed his overwhelming affection towards Eun Sang, thinking Eun Sang has no feelings for him. "Because Tan is good looking." "I’m happy that you’re here." "I miss you, can’t you stay longer?" "Can you not leave me?" "I missed you…" these things Tan have been telling Eun Sang so shamelessly, because he wants to show Eun Sang his sincere heart. All Tan yearn for is for Eun Sang to allow him into her heart, "I wish they would miss me, feel lonely when I’m not there even if it’s just for a moment;" what Tan wanted from his family, but have never gotten; Tan wants Eun Sang to miss him when he’s not there next to her.
Eun Sang does, Tan doesn’t know.
Tan is willing to sacrifice everything he can for Eun Sang right now. Talking back to his dad, defying the Chairwoman’s orders at school, even fighting with Young Do when he just wanted to graduate high school quietly and peacefully. All this time, Tan thought the only thing he need is Eun Sang’s hand and they can hold on tight and go against the world, even with all odds against them. Call it immature stupid young love, that’s what Tan earnestly hope for.
Until now, she finally admit that she likes him too, but she doesn’t want to try, Tan’s single hope in life went crashing down. Everything, every hope, every dream that came out of that very dream catcher had been taken away from him.
Eun Sang said those words "No one knows about your family situation right? You can’t protect me, try to protect yourself," to hurt Tan on purpose, to make him give up on her, Eun Sang at some point probably thinks Tan is the Chaebol’s son who is bored with his late teen life and is trying to rebel. You can blame Eun Sang for not wanting to be the outlet for Tan’s rebellion, while you can’t blame Tan for trying to catch a ray of sunshine that is Eun Sang after being in the cloudily endless road he had been walking on since the day after he was born.
For the first time, Tan had no remark to Eun Sang’s words; he had no comforting words for Eun Sang, no joke to make her feel better. He had been hurt again, by the very person he never hope to be hurt by.
For the first time, Tan walked away from Eun Sang.
For the first time, Eun Sang cried for Tan quietly….
Since when do we care who Ed’s songs are about, so why should we care now? We have the privilege of being able to hear and listen to a new song. So let’s listen to it as that. It deserves to be listened to for how it is, and not to be picked apart and dissected suspecting every line and looking for clues, and making assumptions. Just enjoy what it is.